So, I would like to share more about this certain fatigue that I encountered late last year. It was a whim of the moment kinda decision - I was supposed to be studying for my exams, it was about 1am. But I just wanted to procrastinate. So unknowingly, I sat there and scrolled mindlessly on my IG for two whole hours. I had a shock, how did time past by so fast?! I was just 'stalking' people, reading some celebrities' IG posts, and time was wasted just like that. It was a shocking awakening. So I decided then that I am going to delete IG till after my exams ended.

A few weeks past, my exams ended, I realized I didn't miss social media at all. (Okay granted, I still have FB, but I only use it to browse interesting articles/videos. Haha.) Thus I decided to just live without IG. And I've been relishing it! You don't feel like you are missing anything after a while. I love that freedom.

This is partly because I find IG world becoming more and more fake. I find people creating content just for the sake of popularity, and I yearn for authenticity and genuineness. I realized I've become so cynical of whatever people post, just because I don't quite agree with their intentions.

Increasingly, I become someone I dislike when I'm on social media. I am judgy, I am cynical, and I unknowingly like to compare my life with others, who seem to have so much more in life than me. It came to a point where I feel it's unhealthy for my soul.

Also, I don't quite agree with the need to justify my life on social media. Who says I need to post a picture with nice captions to 'justify' that I've been on a holiday? Who says I need to post a couple photo to 'justify' to the whole world that I'm still together with this certain guy? Why do I need to post any photo on social media to 'justify' its existence in my life? Many things became 'needful' because somehow, there was an invisible pressure to do so. For eg, wishing someone Happy Birthday. My life exists on its own with or without social media. I can still live a beautiful life without having the need to update the world about it.

So, I decided once and for all to delete for good. Yes I still do go on IG web version here and there! To check on some people I follow for inspiration (decor ideas, skincare guide etc). The web version is so laggy that I usually give up after a while. So it works. Haha!

But yes, I do miss posts from some of my real friends that I enjoy reading. Also posts of my friends' kids. So now, I would need to intentionally connect and message friends I've been thinking of. I think that's more meaningful! :)

I might change my thinking in the future, who knows. But for now, I'm happily living the IG-free life and I love it. :)